Life is more difficult than…
…I thought it would be. I swear, for the life of me, I can’t get to work on time lately. I’m not sure what’s up. Either I’m unlucky and end up being half an hour to an hour late because of some event, or 5-15 minutes late because I left the house a little later.
I can’t get over my crap. I always feel awkward and like the odd girl out whenever I hang out with my friends or anyone. I just feel like the awkward insecure girl who always has issues and is no fun. I think part of this is because I don’t have like a solid group of friends. I don’t even know what I’m really talking about. I guess I need to stop comparing myself to other people and what I see on Facebook etc. When I was “dating”, one of my favorite things about my ex was his group of friends. They were all so close and always really accepting and welcoming of me. I loved how they would all just hang out at someone’s house and have barbecues and just chill or they’d have video game parties. I want a group of friends like that. I guess I also want more friends. I always feel like the unpopular girl because I just don’t know how to make friends. I don’t mean to make it seem like “Oh my God, I don’t have friends so I’m a loser“. It’s just a theme I’ve noticed. I need to get my ish together. I keep waiting for a breakthrough or something like an Eat, Pray, Love moment or some kind of revelation to wake me up and bring me back to myself. It just doesn’t seem like it’s gonna happen.
but it flew away from her reach
so she ran away in her sleep and
dreamed of paradise
every time she closed her eyes
hye there..
actually, saya pon selalu berharap macam awak. Saya selalu berharap dapat kawan-kawan sekepala macam zaman sekolah. Bila zaman U ni, kawan-kawan dah tak macam zaman sekolah. Sampailah satu masa saya terjumpa ayat ini,
“People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.”
So, let us build bridges! ;)
salam perkenalan ;)
What a beautiful quote. It’s so true. I have to stop closing myself, let my guard down, and extending my relationships. Who knows, I might have a chance of having a new friend.
I’m definitely looking forward to getting to know you better!
someone gave me d lyric of a song, err macam the one bawah tu..
oh bdw, im unpopular too. i dnt really have group of frens but i have few close one. um, oh i got one. with seniors. always with seniors. they are d type who always welcome the others too. i found tht my other frens hv closed group of frens but they’re errr.. just enjoying among themselves, rejecting others.
so, need not to feel so down. sometimes the people around us are not our type, thats why we dont really get along with them. jz be flexible, so even u dnt have group of frens, u can mix with all kinds of circle :)
That’s the thing I don’t like; being rejected (my deepest fear).
I have a few close friends, but none hardly makes an effort with me anymore. I wish I could figure out what I’m doing wrong. I can be shy sometimes but I know I’m an alright person! But I’m so thankful, I now am able to connect with complete strangers after I regain my self confidence. The other day, I struck up a conversation with the worker in elevator. I had a lot of fun having conversations with her.
sometimes life very difficult. be patient one day u can meet friends who understand u. Don`t be sad fighting!!!!
Terima kasih, Lady Ayu <3 Love you for the sake of Allah.
My friends are all awesome people even though some of them act like a nanny or a husband to me. They take control. Sometimes they act like they own me. Huhu. But they are all awesome. I guess different people have different ways of showing their love and affection. Be friend with us! Hee. Note that I’m not a very friendly person. So, they being close to me (despite this sour face) and understand me is awesome enough for me. Hee.
Sometimes, it is not them who is avoiding us, maybe it is just us. (I use this to comfort myself whenever I’m feeling abandon by them. Hee)
Will be following you from now on! ;D
OMG, that’s exactly what my friend told me. I keep trying to remind myself that this is NOT me. I am a happy and strong person and this feeling of hopelessness will pass. It’s hard for me to feel justified in being upset when there are people who have it so much worse. Maybe I’m being too hard on myself, yes? But yeah, sometimes it’s just so frustrating when you feel so awful but have no idea why or can only think of ridiculous reasons…
Ah, I hope you don’t think I’m just whining over nothing, because that would make me feel even more worse.
Let’s be friends!