What depression?
I’ve realized that I have a habit of updating only once in two months, either at the beginning or toward the end, rarely in between. Sorry I’ve been terrible at writing regularly this year, readers; thanks for bearing with me.
So, I’m trying to get the motivation to start the application for graduate school. I hate the fact that you have to get letters of recommendation for this shit. Some of the professors in my department from undergrad were a*holes, except for the adjunct. They were all pretty awesome. The actual Ph.D holders were pretentious little pricks who needed to retire or needed to be fired.
I’d rather not contact any of them, but I need letters from people in my actual department. I refuse to contact the ex-head of department of bioscience & biotechnology. The man couldn’t even remember who I was! I’ll most likely contact the microbiology professor, since I worked rather closely with him for my final project for graduation. There are a few other professors I do plan to ask. There was a biochemistry professor, whom I swear I had a mad crush on. I took one of his classes, and I wasn’t even a Biochemistry major. He was attractive, soft spoken, and downright intelligent. I loved it when he speak with a strong accent from the north of Malaysia. So cute! I would just sit there and watch him with a dazed look and smile on my face. He was the only one who showed strong support in my well being, grades and overall academic career. He told me that anytime that I needed a letter of recommendation, or any help with grad school, to let him know. I plan to do so when I get started on writing the requests for them.
The other that I have in mind would be my Korean lecturer. I LOVED that woman. I was going to make Korean my minor, but I didn’t have the time or energy left to take three more 300 level courses. I had to focus on my major in order to graduate within a good 2 year period. But I loved every minute of my Korean classes. She was downright sweet and amusing. She had a heart and always made sure her students passed with her help.
It’s stressful. I have to request things from people I haven’t seen or spoken to in 2 years, fill out an application, take a standardized test (which I think those are a waste of time and money), write at least 2 statements of intent/purpose of deciding certain major essays, provide writing samples and try to get this all done by October. The deadlines for the majors I’m interested in are sometime after November, but I like to be early with stuff like this.
Eh, I’m just grouchy and moody lately. I don’t care for it, but at the same time, I can’t help it. I’m not where I want to be in life right now and I know it’s going to take another year or so to get to that point. I just hate the waiting game. I seriously think I need another vacation except a month long one instead of just a week.
I know what you’re going through there. Believe me, I was in the same boat as you are in now some months ago. Letters of recommendation, referees, blah blah. Such a lot of things to do.
Yeah some of the senior lecturers can be a pain in the a$$, which was why I picked my fav ones to be my referees. Lol. Anyway, good luck with the application. You’ll feel so much better once you got it done and over with. I’ve done mine and am just waiting for enrollment at the end lf the month.
Best of luck to you girl!
As for those recommendations, my friend suggested me to get people that I liked and who liked me and whose classes I did well in. Hmm, I guess I have to accept the fact that I will go ahead and just contact the professors that I did well with instead of trying to beg/bribe/impress the one’s that I hated. It’s just a frustrating process, really.
And thank you, deario!